Always Alone

He was looking at me
like he always does
eager to love me
waiting for me to reach out to him.

And I was suddenly aware 
of how dependent he is on me
to keep him alive.
I was the sun, giving him warmth; 
helping him thrive. 

But how does the sun shine?
What keeps it from exploding into a million stars
and fading into black?
And that’s when I knew,
No matter who I’m with
I will always be alone.